Friday, March 27, 2009

Luteal phase...

may just be the lesson for this evening. all day I've been bitchy, cranky and generally unpleasant to be around. D was able to "escape" a majority of this, as he slept til 11 and went to work (and is working overnight). My poor, sweet boys, however, are another story. They've had to listen to me kvetch and micromanage...complain and cry. For fucksake!! Does it help to know that I'm luteal, and that the progesterone surging in my body is making me crazy like this? What would following the Law of Attraction do for me... can I just decide that my body is perfectly designed and I don't have to suffer (and make others suffer) through this time of the month?

good grief.

I am so happy, on days like this, that the boys and I are so connected that we will make it through unscathed. I've apologized at least 10 times today, and called "do-overs" a few times too :) I guess it's going to be okay...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Total Annihilation



Total Annihilation is a new (well, not exactly NEW now) passion that all three boys share...I love it when they set up at the table and play. The smack-talk is enjoyable to listen to, too :)

A boy and his frog

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Truly Present

The boys and I got home from Declan's karate class and dinner around 8:15 this evening...D's working tonight, and after my my less-than-ideal sleep last night, I was ready to zone out and play on my newly re-built laptop. (Have I mentioned lately that DH is a computer wiz, gadget genius and I'm SOOOOOO lucky to have him?!) Torin really wanted to finish his new Star Wars Lego set, and I had told him on the way home that I'd help him... Declan didn't want to play Halo, which was T's first choice, so I offered Legos with me while Declan played Spore as an alternate. I was *so* tempted to play on my computer and just hand him the pieces as he finished up his creation. I have a patience issue with Legos as it is, and knew that it wasn't the best idea...and my lil guy really was wanting to connect with me, and spend some time building this awesome aircraft with me. What an honor :) and I know it's not going to last forever...someday he may be happy building by himself! So, I decided to practice living in the way I really want to- being truly present.

We had a great time (and I really do love building with Legos...and my position of piece-finder!!!) and finished it...and now I'm getting some computer time :) and I didn't have to half-ass either.



What the hell am I doing up at 5am?

Oh, my.

My poor, sweet Torin is having some major congestion issues. That thick cough that makes you cringe...and makes him have to vomit/cough up and spit stuff out every 53.2 minutes (or more frequently, lol) so I am up. D and I got him propped on the couch after he dozed off around 11:30 and hoped for the best. Made it til midnight :) and I think I was up 6 times by 5am. Then I decided it was best just to get out the laptop, since I really couldn't sleep :) It's amazing to me, that after 4 days of this, I'm still waking up feeling well rested! Mind shift, I think... last night I was definitely ready for sleep at midnight!

Yesterday was a full day...D home in the morning, picked up my MacBook from the Apple store (they replaced a part for FREE...the front of the case on my particular laptop has been known to crack and they replace it free of charge- I love Apple!) through the carwash, and picked up crickets for the critters (and tadpoles!! The lovely people at Petsmart gave them to me without charge when I asked about them :) Declan used his spending money a long while back to get a kit, and we decided it was lame to have to send off for the tadpoles...we'd find them locally...not realizing it wasn't the right season, lol. So he was very happy when I showed up with a couple in a bag yesterday!) anyway...ALL this before 11am, which is not normal for me =)

Then to the park for our Tuesday Homeschool Park get together...as usual, a great place to spend time with some of our favorite peeps. And new friends, too! And sweet Jayne attempted to teach Shari and I to knit, tee hee. I need to try to get my needles out in the next day or so, lest i forget what we learned!

We have a couple of new-to-homeschooling folks (just pulled their kids from ps) and so the conversation at the park was all about different methods of homeschooling, the angst of ps and a child's excitement about a science fair project being squashed because the teacher didn't think it was a great idea (and that translated into the possibility of a lower grade so it was dropped) and how bad that sucks. How one elementary school is so concerned about gang activity (have had issues in the past, I guess) that the kiddos have to sit in complete silence whenever their at their desks. ummmm, not being allowed to go to the bathroom if it's not the "right time" in the schedule...man, I'm glad we found this life before either of the boys had to be subjected to that!

Headed out of the parking lot around 5:45pm (sun still out! and a bee-utiful day it was for St. Patty's) and home to leave the boys with Mimi (the sitter) and head to Starbucks for the Unschooling United meeting that I facilitate. This group is everything I wanted, imagined and more :) amazing people, talking about the life I love...real conversation with others who get where you're coming from. aaaaaahhhhhh. And I've enjoyed how each month has been a different combination of people...usually some veteran RUers and at least one person new to the idea of the freedom we have. I just LOVE it!

Home to my boys at 10...Declan headed to be shortly thereafter (he likes to have me here before he goes to sleep, if at all possible) and then T and I watched The Suite Life On Deck until he fell asleep on me, sitting up (easier to breathe that way, dontcha know) and D got home from work.

And then I got a lil sleep :) and now I'm up with the coffee that I don't usually need (but it tastes so f'n good this morning)...and ready to have at it again! Boys starting back up with tennis after a hiatus (for unpredictable weather). They LOVE it. Not sure if it's cause they're doing it with friends (many of whom decided not to participate this 6 weeks) or the coach (who bugs the hell out of me, but I have decided to "get over myself" because he's good with the kids and the boys like him) or what....it's just awesome to see them so passionate about something and be able to make it available for them! It's the only activity that Torin's really wanted to take part in like this (he's told me in the past "I would like to take a class, as long as there's not a teacher") and it really brings joy to us all! I need to get D to look at my iPhoto so I can post pictures!!!!! Be looking for them sometime soon :)

Friday, March 13, 2009

Time flies...

funny...looks like I've used that title already before (it came up automatically when I started typing)but it is once again true. I am happy that I have a laptop at my disposal again, and hope that means my writing will be more prolific.

I don't know where to begin.. or if I should go back and pre-date some entries, but SO much has happened since my silence. I feel like I'm becoming more of myself each day :) and it feels so good, LOL.

The things I'd like to chat about are: The Peace Treaty, Enjoy Parenting, Unschooling United, my health and food choices, music and the boys (what else, right?)

I can't put up pics right now (iPhoto is behaving badly after migrating all my stuff to the MacBook) but I will soon...so many fun images to share!

Just know that I'm back ;) (for those of you who've been asking where I've been) and better than ever...

Peace & Abundance, Cid